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Country Girl: Chapters 1+2

7 Feb

I started writing this short story over three years ago, but poems and song lyrics took over and I completely forgot about it. So I decided to go back and try to finish it. Here’s the first two chapters.

 

Chapter One

I’ll never forget the day I met my country girl.

I arrived in Nashville, Tennessee two days ago.  The first night I spent in my hotel, The Doubletree, just off Jefferson Street on 4th Avenue North.  It had been a long flight from Ontario and an even longer one from London the day before, so I decided that a night in front of the TV with the mini bar would suffice, rather than hitting the bars.

Last night though, I decided to check out the local bars and taverns – that’s when I saw her.

It was at a place called Johnny’s, a little hillbilly joint a few blocks down from my hotel on Broadway, next to Hard Rock Café.  Everybody there seemed to be dressed in boots, jeans, checkered shirts, leather or suede jackets and Stetson hats.  I walked over to the bar.

‘Howdy son,’ the bar tender greeted me with a bright smile.  ‘What’ll it be?’

‘Um, gin and tonic, thanks.’

‘You ain’t from round here, huh?’

‘Nope, just got here.’

‘You’re English, right?’  The bar tender asked, setting down my drink.

‘Yep.  Arrived in Canada last week to visit some friends, then arrived here two days ago,’ I answered, handing him a ten dollar bill.

‘And whatcha up to all the way down here?’

‘Looking for inspiration – I’m a writer.’

‘Oh yeah?  What kinda stuff d’you write about?’

‘This and that, a few horror novels.  To be honest I haven’t really thought about what to write about this time.’

‘Well I’m sure you’ll think of something.’

‘I hope so,’ I smiled and wandered off to find a table after accepting my change.

Half an hour later, just as I was starting my second drink of the night, she walked onto the stage.  I was instantly mesmerized.  She was beautiful.  Long blonde hair and an angelic face complete with big, blue eyes and thin, red lips.  Her long, smooth legs protruded from her denim mini skirt and her blue and white chequered shirt was tied by its bottom corners into a bow.  On her head she wore the obligatory cowboy hat.

‘Howdy y’all,’ she hollered into the microphone.  ‘My name’s Suzie and I’m gonna be playing a few tune’s for y’all to dance along with,’ she said before picking up her guitar.  I gazed at her for the next hour as she strummed on her guitar and sang along in her sweet southern voice.  She sang of love and loss, happiness and pain, acceptance and rejection.  After the first half an hour it looked as if she was about ready to drop.  It was a hot night, and it showed.  Her face, chest and stomach glistened with sweat; her hair clung to her scalp as if dowsed with water.  But she carried on going until she’d come to the end of her set.

When she finished she disappeared from the stage and headed to the back of the building.  I thought that was the last I’d see of her that night.  Luckily I was wrong.

Later that night I was standing at the bar, ordering my fifth drink of the evening, when Suzie came and stood next to me.

‘Hey,’ she said, greeting me in her soft but strongly accented voice.

‘Hi,’ I replied.  ‘Suzie, right?’

‘Yup.  And you are?’

‘Eddie,’ I replied, holding out my hand.  She took it and shook it gently.

‘Well it’s a pleasure to meet you Eddie.  You enjoy the show t’night?’

‘Sure did, you were great.’

‘Why thank you.  Didn’t see ya dancing though.’

‘No, I’m afraid my kind don’t dance.’

‘Your kind?’  She asked, pronouncing the word kind, “kand”.

‘White English men.’

She laughed.  ‘You’re funny.  I bet I can getcha to dance.’

‘Oh, I doubt it.’

‘Let me try, I bet I can.’

‘I wouldn’t want to put you through it.’

‘But I wanta.  C’mon, let me see’f I can do it.’

‘I…’  I didn’t get a chance to argue further.  She grabbed my arm and dragged me over to the dance floor where a dozen other couples were dancing.

‘Nobody’ll even see ya,’ she said.

We got to the dance floor and she pulled me against her and we began to sway to the sound of Kenny Chesney‘s “Living in Fast Forward”.

‘There you go,’ she said.  ‘And you said you couldn’t dance.’

‘I’d hardly say I’m dancing,’ I smiled.

‘Better than I used to.  Take me back five year ago and I couldn’t dance worth a damn.’

‘I find that hard to believe.’

‘It ain’t nothin’ but the truth.  ‘Til I started working here I had the rhythm of road kill.’

‘Well, perhaps there’s hope for me yet,’ we both laughed and continued.  We carried on dancing through to the conclusion of “Living in Fast Forward” and Keith Urban’s “Where the Blacktop Ends”.  When the latter finished, we went back to the bar where my drink was still waiting.

‘What are you drinking?’  I asked her.

‘Well, if you’re buying, I’ll have a double Jack,’ she smiled.  I nodded at the barmen to get his attention.

‘Howdy son, back for another?’

‘Not me.  Give me a double JD for Suzie.’

‘Certainly fella,’ he poured the drink and slid it along the bar towards us.  I handed him another ten and told him to keep the change.  Me and Suzie clinked our glasses together and sipped our drinks.

‘Don’t know how you can drink that stuff,’ I said.

She smirked.  ‘You’re in Tennessee, you gotta drink the whiskey.’

I chuckled and took another swig. ‘So,’ I said.  ‘How often do you play here?’

‘Few times a week.  Pays the bills.’

‘You don’t have another job?’

‘I teach kids to play the six string.  It don’t pay too much, but combined with singing here, I get by OK.  What brings you down to these parts?’

‘I’m working on a new novel.’

‘Oooh, a writer.  You done anything I might know?’

‘I doubt it.  I haven’t sold much, if anything, in the States.’

‘That’s a pity.  You’ll have to get me copies.’

‘Definitely.’

She smiled again.  We moved to a table next to the dance floor and sat opposite each other.  As I stretch out my legs, I nudged her shin by accident.

‘Sorry,’ I said.

‘That’s ok,’ she smiled. I couldn’t tell if she was blushing, her cheeks were still flushed from dancing.  I smiled back and sipped my drink.

After a short silence, Suzie spoke.

‘So, when I said I didn’t see you dancing before, I did see you watching me.’

‘You were performing; of course I was watching you.’

‘Yeah, but you weren’t just watching me for the performance, were you?’

‘I…err…I guess not.’

She giggled and bashfully tucked her hair behind her ears.

‘You want another dance?’  She asked.

‘I’d rather just talk.’

‘Well in that case, you wanta take me back to your place?  It’ll be easier to talk.’

‘Oh…I…really?’

‘Uh huh.’

‘I…I don’t know.’

She sighed.  ‘I know whatcha thinking.’

‘You do?’

‘Yup.  You’re thinking, “I wonder how many other guys she’s said that to in the past?  After all, she said she doesn’t earn too much money; she must need a little extra for herself.  Sure, I’m not bad looking, but she’s a stunner.  Why would she want to come back to my place if not for a little personal gain?”  Right?’

‘No.  No, of course not.  I mean, maybe the first part to an extent.  But I don’t think…I don’t think anything like that.’

‘An honest man, ain’t many of you around.’

‘No point in lying, the truth always comes out.’

‘True. We don’t have to go, I don’t staying here, it’s just after ten o’clock it tends to get pretty rowdy in here,’ she smirked.

‘Tell you what, we’ll finish these, get a bottle of wine to go, and smuggle it into my room. How does that sound?’

‘Sounds like a heck of a plan.’

At half past eleven, we were sat on the double bed in my hotel room, drinking the bottle of red we’d liberated from Johnny’s in tea cups, and talking about nothing in particular, until Suzie changed the subject.

‘About what I said in the bar…when I sort of accused you of thinking I was a hooker?’ Suzie said looking embarrassed.

‘Don’t worry about it.’

‘It’s just a lot of guys try it on with me, and most of them look at me and think I’m easy.  But you wanta know how many guys I have been with in the last few years?’  She didn’t give me a chance to reply.  ‘None.’

‘None?’

‘Nope.  In fact, I ain’t been with a guy for five years.’

‘Five years?  How old were…’

‘Fourteen.’

Fourteen.  Shit.  Can I ask…sorry you don’t have to tell me.’

‘It’s OK, I want to.’

I nodded.

‘I’ve never told anybody this, it’s kinda hard.’

‘So don’t…’

‘Shhhh!’ She cut me off, I apologised.

‘When I was eleven my daddy…err…he starting having sex with me.’

‘Jesus, Suzie.  I don’t think…’

‘Please Eddie.’

‘Sorry…I…go on.’

‘Like I said, my daddy started having sex with me.  He told me that it was normal and that everybody did it.  I knew he was lying, but I went along with it.  He could get a little violent after he’d spent most of the day slugging whisky from the bottle.  It went on for about three years, my mom never tried to stop him.  I knew it was because she was scared of him, but as far as I’m concerned, she was as much to blame as he was.

One day, after school, I came home and found my mom lying on the kitchen floor.  She was struggling to breathe.  I realized she was having a heart attack.  I saw my chance and I ran up stairs and packed a suitcase.  I didn’t even stop to give my mom one last look.  I just left her there to die.

I hung around a few bars and cafes, playing a few tunes, earning free meals and shit like that. Told ’em all I was sixteen, no-one ever asked questions.  Then one day Johnny offered me a few permanent gigs for money, not food.  He also let me use the spare room above the bar until I got myself on my feet.  I’ve been working there ever since.’

‘You live there too?’

‘No, I got a small apartment just down from here on 7th.’

‘Oh, ok.  So, what happened to your father?’

‘Last I heard he got wasted on whole bottle JD, sometimes I think that’s all he drank, and fell into the river and drowned after a fight.’

‘Too bad.’

‘Right,’ she grinned.  ‘Too bad no-one cleaned his clock a few years earlier.’

I smiled back.  ‘Must’ve been pretty rough on your own for the last five years.’

‘Are you kidding me?  It’s been great.  No one telling me what to do.  No one using me like he did.  I’ve made friends; I’ve got two jobs that I love.  I met you,’ another smile.

‘Yeah, I guess you did.’

We stared into each other’s eyes, and said nothing.  Eventually Suzie leant forward and kissed me.  It seemed to last forever and yet didn’t seem to last long enough.  When we broke off, she removed her blouse, she wore nothing beneath it, and placed my hands on her breasts.  They were warm and soft beneath my touch.

‘Make love to me,’ she whispered.

‘Are you sure?’

‘Yes.  Please.

I nodded and kissed her again.  After we disrobed, I lay her back on the bed.  We continued kissing as our hands and lips explored each other’s bodies.

Outside it had begun to drizzle, the gentle thrumming of the rain on the window ledge set a calming back beat for the rhythm of our entwined bodies.  We made love until the early hours when we finally fell asleep in each others arms.

 

Chapter Two

I usually try to get to church on Sundays, let the big guy know I’m still on his side. But today I just couldn’t bring myself to leave the bed. After making love last night, Suzie and I had fallen asleep still holding each other. The warmth and the softness of Suzie’s skin against mine kept me firmly routed to the bed whilst she lay half on, half off me, her arm over my waist and her head resting on my chest. Peering through the small gap between the curtains, I could see a few drops of rain pirouetting down the window; the pitter-patter on the window ledge added to the feeling of tranquillity of lying in next to the woman I was sure I’d fallen in love with after just one night.

Eventually though, at about a quarter past ten, I decided that I had to use the bathroom. I removed her arm from across my abdomen and swung my legs off the bed and made my way across the room. After finishing, I washed up and headed to the kitchen to make two cups of coffee. When I got back to the bedroom, Suzie was awake. She was lying on her back. I could make out the shape of her body through the thin sheet she’d wriggled beneath; her long, smooth legs, her slim waist and hips, and the modest rise of her breasts.

‘Morning,’ she smiled at me.

‘Good morning.’

‘I don’t think we’re gonna make it to church.’

‘I’m sure we can get away with missing one week.’

‘Mmm. Besides, I’m far too comfy here,’ she said, smoothing the sheet against her velvety skin. She held out her hand.

‘Gimme. I need to wake up.’

I walked to her side of the bed and set one cup down before making my way back to my side and slipping back beneath the covers. No sooner had my body hit the mattress and Suzie was on top of me, her bare skin once more pressed firmly against mine. She kissed me. Not a soft like we shared last night, but firm and passionate. When she broke away and tried to roll off me, I held her close against me. She let out a playful squeal and kissed me on the tip of my nose.

‘What we gonna do t’day?’ She asked.

‘I don’t know. What ever you fancy.’

‘Well, I ain’t never been to the Country Music Hall of Fame before.’

‘Where’s that?’

‘Down on 5th Avenue South.’

‘Sounds good to me. You’ve really never been there?’

‘Nope. Been here my whole life an’ never been there. Never had the money to be honest. I can afford it now though.’

‘Well it’s a shame that I’m buying then.’

‘I can pay.’

‘Don’t be daft, it’s my treat.’

She smiled and kissed me. ‘You’re a sweetheart.’ Then she rolled off me, downed her coffee and swung her legs off the bed.

‘Where you going?’ I asked.

‘To pee and shower.’

‘You need any company.’

She feigned a frown. ‘To pee?’

I chuckled, she laughed. ‘If you join me we won’t never get there, will we?’

‘I guess not.’

As she walked towards the bathroom door, I gazed at her pert buttocks as they gently wiggled beneath her smooth back. Then the door shut. I lay back on the bed sipping my coffee. For a moment I wondered how on earth she’d managed to drink hers so quickly. When I heard the shower kick into life I picked up the telephone and called down to room service.  I hung up after being told it would be with me in ten to fifteen minutes, and headed for the bathroom once more.  I opened the door quietly and saw Suzie’s silhouette behind the shower curtain.   I walked towards her and slowly pulled back the curtain.

‘Couldn’t resist, huh?’  Suzie whispered.  I stepped in and kissed her.   Her body, slippery with shower gel and shampoo, felt like velvet beneath my hands.

‘Room service will be here in ten minutes,’ I told her.

‘Better be quick then,’ Suzie smirked.

‘I think I can manage that.’

We both laughed as I gently pushed her up against the wall of the shower.

At half past two we left the museum. In the gift shop I bought Suzie a new Stetson and a compilation CD containing most of her favourites, including: Ronnie Milsap’s “Smokey Mountain Rain”, Johnny Cash “I Walk the Line”, Alabama’s “Tennessee River”, Steve Earle’s “Someday” and Garth Brooks “Aint Going Down Till the Sun Comes Up”.

‘That was awesome!’ Suzie said as we walked hand in hand out of the main entrance. ‘Thanks for the prezzies.’

‘You’re welcome.’

‘I coulda got them myself though.’

‘I know. But I wanted to treat you.’

She leant against me, her head resting on my shoulder.

‘We should get some lunch,’ Suzie suggested.

‘Good idea, I’m starving. Any suggestions?’

‘We could keep with the music theme and go to Hard Rock Café.’

‘Do they do food?’

‘Sure do. They don’t do nothing big, but we can get a proper meal tonight, right?’

‘Sure can ma’am,’ I said in my best southern accent.

‘Idiot,’ she laughed and nudged me playfully.

As we wandered back up towards Broadway, Suzie put her arm around my waist.

‘Why are you being so good to me?’ She asked.

‘What do you mean? Because I like you…a lot.’

‘But you only just met me last night.’

‘So.’

‘So…I don’t know. I ain’t never fallen for someone so quickly before.’

‘You’ve fallen for me?’

‘Well, yeah. I wouldn’t have told you ‘bout my folks if not. And you’re the first guy I’ve been with since…you know.’

I pulled her close. ‘Would it be weird if I said that I was falling in love with you?’ I felt her shaking her head against my shoulder.

‘So what happens now?’ She asked. ‘If we both feel like this? You ain’t gonna be here forever, right?’

‘Why not? It’s not like I have a job to go back to. I’m a writer. I can go where I want and write where I want; all I need is my laptop, the internet, and a phone.’

‘Mmm, go where you want. That sounds good.’

‘Yeah. Well, why don’t we?’

‘Seriously?’

‘Why not?’

‘I’ve never even been outside Nashville in my life.’

‘There’s a first time for everything.’

‘I guess. Oooh exciting! When we gonna go?’

‘We should work out where to go first.’

‘Franklin. I always wanted to try ’n rodeo.’

‘You want to rodeo?’

‘Yeah. It’ll be so fun. We have t’do it.’

‘I…ok, sure. Franklin it is.’

‘Yay!’ She flung both arms around me as we turned the corner on to Broadway.

After we ate, we headed on over to Johnny’s so Suzie could break the news.  She explained that it was a spur of the moment decision, and that she felt it was time for her to move on, away from Nashville. He said he understood.

‘You know you’ll always have a job here Suze.’

‘I know, thanks Johnny.’

He gave her a solemn grin. ‘How ‘bout a coupla drinks before you go?’

‘We ain‘t going for a week or two, Johnny.’

‘I know, I guess I wanna just spend as much time with ya as possible.’

Suzie blinked away a tear and hugged her friend and boss.

‘I could give you guys a bit of time by yourselves if you’d like,’ I suggested.

‘Don’t be silly,’ Johnny said. ‘Besides, I’ve got get to know the man who’s taking my Suzie away,’ he smirked.

We sat down at the same table as last night. Johnny joined us. He brought three glasses and a bottle of Jack.

‘Oh, I think I’ll just stick to the gin,’ I said.

‘Like hell,’ Johnny said with a smile. ‘You ain’t leaving with my gal ‘til you at least have a coupla shots.’

‘Well, alright. What’s the worst that can happen?’ I said as Johnny poured the whiskey. We each picked up a glass and clinked them together.

‘To Suzie and Eddie and their big adventure,’ Johnny said, and we all drank.

The next morning I woke up with the biggest hangover of my life. After taking a few minutes to gather myself, I heard the shower running. I left the bed, each footstep was like a needle to my temple, and made my way to the bathroom. I pushed open the door.

‘Morning,’ I said to the blurred figure behind the shower curtain.

‘Hey. How’s the head?’

‘Oh, fantastic.’

She giggled. ‘Why don’t you come and join me again. I’m sure I can make you feel better.’

I didn’t doubt her for a second. I removed my boxers and pulled back the curtain. The sight of Suzie’s naked body, glistening beneath the warm spray, made feel a little better already. I put my hands on her hips and pulled her against me. We kissed for a long time as the water caressed our bodies. Squeezing shower gel onto her hands, Suzie began to gently rub me down; cleansing my body, sticky with sweat from last night’s drinking session. I returned the favour.
We didn’t leave the shower until the water ran luke-warm.

‘I guess that’s our cue to get some breakfast,’ I whispered in her ear and softly kissed her neck.

‘I s’pose.’

‘Room service?’

‘How ‘bout Dunkin’ Donuts?’

‘Dunkin’ Donuts?’

‘Yeah, you haven’t been yet, and you wouldn’t let me go yesterday. Besides, you gotta at least try it once, it’s soooo good!’

‘Alright,’ I said, giving in.

After we got dressed we headed out of the hotel and got a taxi to Murfreesboro Pike, a long way to go for breakfast, but worth it to see Suzie smile. The donuts were surprisingly pleasant. I don’t usually eat that kind of junk, but I guess it makes a nice change every once in a while. After breakfast we headed back to the hotel to try and decide on a route for our adventure.

A week and a half later, we’d decide where to go, at least for the first month or so, the rest we’d play by ear. After we’d packed, we went over to Johnny’s to say goodbye. Suzie was already crying by the time we parked outside the bar. We headed inside and were greeted by the landlord.

‘You best take good care of my Suzie,’ he said, his arm secured firmly around my shoulders. ‘She’s a special young lady.’

‘She’s the best. Of course I’ll take care of her.’

‘Good lad. Here, got you something.’ Johnny handed me a bottle of Jack Daniels. I chuckled and told him I probably wouldn’t be able to so much as sniff any more whiskey for as long as I live.

We piled our luggage into the truck and, after sharing our goodbyes with Johnny, we set off.

‘Franklin here we come!’ Suzie hollered after drying her eyes.

‘Yee haw!’ I added – at least it made Suzie laugh.

‘So,’ I asked after she’d composed herself. ‘Do you know which way we’re going?’

Everything I Ever Lost

2 Aug

I rode to Alabama on the midnight train.
Those photographs of you were driving me insane.
So I took a little drive just to clear my head.
I ended up in Nashville in a strangers bed.

It took a couple days, it took a couple stops.
But I found all the pieces of everything I’ve ever lost.

I found a leather wallet on a dirt road floor.
The licence told me Little Rock, Arkansas.
I threw on my jacket and I headed west.
Anticipation burning within my chest.

It took a couple days, it took a couple stops.
But I found all the pieces of everything I’ve ever lost.

Will you be waiting for me when I come home?
Will I hold you in my arms and never let go?
Will you come to Alabama on the midnight train?
Will you stop my little mind from going insane?

It took a couple days, it took a couple stops.
But I found all the pieces of everything I’ve ever lost.
Give me a couple days, let me take a couple stops.
Let me find all piece of everything I’ve ever lost.

Turns out I’m an award winning song writer ;-)

14 Jul

So I got this nice little surprise in the post today:

image

https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2015/05/31/dreams-come-true/

Now I know it’s not a Grammy, but given my recent, on going writers block, and the utter dreck I’ve been putting to paper in the last few weeks, it’s a nice reminder that I can, and will again, write good stuff.
Perhaps it’s also a sign that, rather than writing lyric after lyric, and poem after poem, I should concentrate on the stuff I’ve already written.
Either way, whether I win a main prize and get put on iTunes or not, it’s a nice little morale boost 🙂

Gumbo and Soul

18 Feb

Hitching down to Memphis with a suitcase full of sand.
Steel six string swinging from my right hand.
Tapping out some rhythm and singing some blues.
Looking for a way to stop looking for you.

But if this city just isn’t the right place for me.
I know a quirky little place south of Tennessee.
Steve Earle likes his girls from San Antonio.
But the one I’m looking for likes Gumbo and soul.

She likes Gumbo and soul.
And Jimmy Clanton, y’know.
She likes catfish and shrimp.
Daddy’s moonshine to drink.
She likes soul and Gumbo.
She likes some zydeco.
Skillet Lickers can play.
While she’s dancing away.
She likes Clanton, y’know.
She likes Gumbo and soul.

Been all the way to Vegas, but I’m back in New Orleans.
Manilow’s got nothing on our jazz and R and B.
A little Ragtime on the radio is all my baby needs.
Some Tennessee Champaigne on the rocks’ll set her free.

Some Skynyrd and a Honky Tonk’ll make my honey sing.
She’ll be dancing on the tables soon as Creendance do their thing.
Her simple southern attitude sure ain’t just for show.
‘Cause once the night is over she like her Gumbo and soul.

She likes Gumbo and soul.
And Jimmy Clanton, y’know.
She likes catfish and shrimp.
Daddy’s moonshine to drink.
She likes soul and Gumbo.
She likes some zydeco.
Skillet Lickers can play.
While she’s dancing away.
She likes Clanton, y’know.
She likes Gumbo and soul.

Yeah Gumbo and soul.
Clifton Chenier, y’know.
She likes crawfish and crab.
A little smoke to drag.
She likes soul and Gumbo.
And a zydeco show.
She likes the bayou life.
No trouble or strife.
She likes it simple y’know.
She likes Gumbo and soul.

She likes Gumbo and soul.
She likes Gumbo and soul.
She likes Gumbo and soul.

Poll – Which Song Should I Have Demo’d Next?

10 Oct

Ok guys and girls, I need your help. I can’t decide which of my songs I want to have demo’d next so I need some help in deciding. I’ve whittled it down to four…here they are!

I couldn’t figure out how to add an actual poll, so if you decide to vote, just leave a comment 🙂

1. Back To You – https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2014/07/15/back-to-you/ 

I’ve put this off for far too long.
So I wrote it down in this little song.
I need it now more than before.
So it’s goodbye from me, I’m out that door.

It took a while for me to see.
It’s always been the life for me.
So farewell chaps, I’ll see you soon.
One I’ve escaped from this cocoon.

(chorus)
So you won’t see me.
You won’t see me.
Through the dust kicked up from my old truck.
Wheels are turning.
Life returning.
Now that I’m returning to you.

The sands of time they bury me.
A dark mask of uncertainty.
I’ve lost family, I’ve lost friends.
I’ve been to hell and back again.

These days the tide knocks on my door.
To sanctify these sinful shores.
So tuck this sin under you coat.
To keep this dream of life afloat.

(chorus)
So you won’t see me.
You won’t see me.
Through the dust kicked up from my old truck.
Wheels are turning.
Life returning.
Now that I’m returning to you.

Yesterday I had it made.
A steady job, all my bills paid.
A life of stale monotony.
A life devoid of life, you see.

(chorus)
So you won’t see me.
You won’t see me.
Through the dust kicked up from my old truck.
Wheels are turning.
Life returning.
Now that I’m returning to you.

(bridge)
Now there were time when I’ve been told.
To give it all, my heart, mind and soul.
But I’ve been put down, trampled in shit.
There’s got to be more to life than this.

So you won’t see me.
You won’t see me.
Through the dust kicked up from my old truck.
Wheels are turning.
Life returning.
Now that I’m returning to you.

2. Cold Coffee – https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2014/05/13/cold-coffee/

Nineteen ninety-six I was on my bike.
Tearing down the street, cycling for my life.
And I saw you there, I stopped and stared.
You were in your My Little Pony dress.
I was in my jeans looking like a mess.
But I caught your eye, you waved and smiled.
You said “My name’s Annie” and stuck out your hand.
I gazed into your blues and stuttered “I’m Dan”.
And that was it.
 
Take me back to the street where we first met.
Dinner going cold while we spoke, I bet.
But we didn’t mind.
Cold pasta’s fine.
You grabbed me by the hand and said “Come with me.”
And took me up to Hollywood Hill and we.
Took in the view.
Just me and you.
And I new, that I love you.
 
Ten years on I’m in the coffee house.
Sipping cappuccino when I heard you shout.
“I can’t believe – Dan, it’s me!”
You sprinted over like a running race.
Wrapped me in your arms and you kissed my face.
I choked back a sob, one hell of a job.
 
So take me back to the café where again we met.
Coffee going cold while spoke, I bet.
But we didn’t mind.
Cold coffee’s fine.
Then I grabbed you by the hand and said “come with me”.
And I took you up to Hollywood Hill, and we.
Took in the view.
Just me and you.
And I knew, that I love you.
 
I told you that for the ten years I missed you.
I was tending to my broken heart.
You said “I never knew that I loved you.
Until I think way back to the start”.
 
I said “Let’s go back to the street where we first met.
We’ll ditch this cold coffee” and you said “You bet!”
Though we didn’t mind, cold coffee’s fine.
On the way back jump in the car with me.
I’ll drive us up to Hollywood Hill and we’ll.
Take in the view.
Just me and you.

3. Sing To Me Georgia – https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/sing-to-me-georgia/

Sing to me Georgia, you’re all I need.
You’re more than a love and a life to me.
You’re my world and my heart when it beats.
So sing me a sweet southern melody.

Because I, I’m feeling so low.
I’ve got a good heart.
But it’s beating too slow.

So I, I’ll find you at last.
Before it’s too late.
Before my time’s passed.

Sing to me Georgia, you’re all I need.
I’ll write it all down when I can not speak.
You’re Novocaine in the veins to me.
Sing to me Georgia, that melody.

And I, I see always your face.
When my eyes close.
And I feel your embrace.

But I, I know it’s not true.
I’m not who you love.
Though you know I love you.

Sing with me Georgia, you’re all I need.
You’ll always be love and life to me.
Be the Novocaine in my heart when it bleeds.
So sing me a sweet southern melody.

Sing me a sweet southern melody.

Sing with me Georgia…

4. Dreams Come True – https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2014/03/07/dreams-come-true-2/

I saw photos from the weekend.
You were there.
Rosy red cheeks and that long blonde hair.
Dancing like you owned the bare dance floor.
Not a care in the world, or a single bad thought.
That saccharine smile, hiding all kinds of bad.
A infectious kind of innocence.
And a sorry kind of sad.
Because I know I won’t be there, to hold you no more.
And I know all I’ve got, are these lonely thoughts.
 
I close my eyes and imagine.
What my life could be.
A hero in a fairy tale.
With my princess next to me.
So if I think of it.
Just imagine that.
Dreams come true.
 
Duvet days on Sunday’s.
Hide all day under the sheets.
Always saying something, even when we didn’t speak.
But those days have vanished.
Like a disappearing act.
You told nothing but lies, and presented them as fact.
Now you’re screaming like a banshee.
And I’m howling like a wolf.
We’re distorted like Picasso, instead of perfect like Van Gogh.
Now I know that you won’t be there, when I get home from work.
So I shut out the world, and disappear into thought.
 
My heart it bleeds without you.
My head’s all black and blue.
Now that knight in shining armour is.
A bullied boy with a chipped tooth.
In the parking lot.
You imagine that.
Dreams come true.
 
Now I’m blinded by this rage.
Crashing like waves in the sea.
Spitting out your name, like every time you cussed at me.
And I lost you in a tangle.
In this opaque misery.
Hoping when I dream of you, that you still dream of me.
And I’ll imagine that dreams come true.
Because it’s nothing but a nightmare.
When you are not in it.
Just a dark and lonely tapestry, of the blackest pitch.
And the more I think of it.
Just imagine it might come true.
 
I tried calling you this morning.
To ask you out to lunch.
But the answer from you voice-mail, put me into a trance.
I know you’re out there somewhere.
Happy with someone else.
So I’ll keep my dreams with me, high up on the shelf.
You see I’ve still got those old photo’s.
From the first time that I knew.
I’ll have to spend my days, just dreaming of you.
And perhaps I might get lucky.
Perhaps I’ll strike some gold.
Perhaps when I stop dreaming.
I’ll find my dream’s come true.

The Back Of My Old Truck – Demo Recording

8 Oct

I published this a couple of days ago but found out today that the link was broken, so here it is again.

Here’s the demo for my new song The Back Of My Old Truck. I can’t see who has done the vocals but I’ll be sure to find out. Thanks to http://www.paramountsong.com

https://soundcloud.com/nick-burgin-1984/nick-burgin-the-back-of-my-old-truck

The Back Of My Old Truck – Demo Recording

7 Oct

Here’s the demo for my new song The Back Of My Old Truck. I can’t see who has done the vocals but I’ll be sure to find out. Thanks to http://www.paramountsong.com

https://soundcloud.com/nick-burgin-1984/nick-burgin-the-back-of-my-old-truck

National Poetry Day Countdown – My Top 3

30 Sep

As it’s National Poetry Day on Thursday I thought I’d countdown my three personal favourites from my back catalogue.

Number 2: The Back Of My Old Truck

Late on that summer night.
We were leaving Nashville for the Vegas lights.
When my old truck packed up.
You laughed and said, that’s just our luck.

While we waited I drifted off too sleep.
As you softly sung a lullaby next to me.
You whispered “Rest, baby, while we wait”.
And held me in a sweet embrace.

Somewhere at the back of my mind.
You’re dancing with me for the very first time.
You’re little dress dropping to the floor.
Whispering, baby, that you want me more.

I was high on this pretty sight.
Running all the red lights.
There ain’t nobody else around at this time of night.
You were calling me baby.
Driving me crazy.
Ain’t no way in hell even god could’ve saved me.
And you gave up, you gave in.
There was no way you were never ever not gonna let me in.
That was that, I was in luck.
When you said “I do” in the back of my old truck.

Early on that winter dawn.
I could feel, girl, I could’ve sworn.
Somehow I just knew it.
You laughed and said I’m talking sh…

Then the joking turned to joy.
I sorta hoped it was a boy.
To kick the football around with me.
I guess we’ll have to wait and see.

Nine months flew by so fast.
You were standing on the bathroom mat.
When happened.
It finally happened.

And I was high on this perfect sight.
Running all the red lights.
Thanking god there’s nobody around at this time of night.
I was praying for our baby.
Going a little crazy.
You were screaming at sky “Lord please just save me”.
You never gave up, never gave in.
You pushed and pushed until I held her safely in my hands.
That was that, we were in luck.
When we became a family in the back of my old truck.

Summer time in ’98.
You grabbed that football by the front gate.
You said “daddy come and play”.
Hell, I didn’t hesitate.

When you made the high school team.
It was the happiest you’ve ever been.
You said “Though I’m just a reserve”.
It was the damn least that you deserve.

And I was high on this perfect sight.
Stopping at the red lights.
This place will still be busy until later on tonight.
I was looking at our baby.
Growing up – lord save me!
Dressed in that football shirt that my daddy gave me.
She never gave up, never gave in.
You worked and worked until the coach said “Alright, you’re in”.
That was that, it weren’t no luck.
I was a proud father leaning on the hood of my old truck.

Back To My Roots

27 Feb

Back To My Roots

These roads are exactly what they use to be

Echoes from the long past century.

Whispered old memories whistle in the wind.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots again.

Tyres on the gravel and the pedal to the floor.

Heading back to the Georgia shore.

Not looking back, just moving on.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots alone.

 

I’m going down to the place where it all began.

Me, Suzie Thompson and the Devil’s right hand.

Gonna lay down some chords and listen to the radio.

You know the ink on the paper well it smells home.

You and me together, we were never alone.

But that was then and baby this is now.

Remember when you’re daddy said:

You got a long way to climb.

You got a lot to give and not much time”?

Now we’ve hit the top and it’s time to come back down.

And now.

 

These roads are exactly what they use to be.

Echoes from the long past century.

Whispered old memories whistle in the wind.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots again.

Tyres on the gravel and the pedal to the floor.

Heading back to the Georgia shore.

Not looking back, just moving on.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots alone.

 

Now I’m waking up beside you in our hotel suite.

Not making love like we mean it in the Chevy’s back seat.

Always rolling like thunder before we say goodbye.

Main Street in Nashville just doesn’t have a view.

Like the gardens in Atlanta’s Piedmont Avenue.

Like Ray Charles said, I got it on my mind.

So I’m loading up and kicking dust in the air.

If I don’t see you before, you know I’ll see you there.

So I tip my hat to the past, thankful that he’s here with me.

You see.

 

These roads are exactly what they use to be.

Echoes from the long past century.

Whispered old memories whistle in the wind.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots again.

Tyres on the gravel and the pedal to the floor.

Heading back to the Georgia shore.

Not looking back, just moving on.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots alone.

 

The boarded up widows of our old family home.

The smell of momma’s pecan pie is one I’ll never disown.

Hiding secrets and memories that sure do make me smile.

But now the past is gone and the future’s here.

Making new memories, new hopes, new fears.

New everything else, but same old me and you.

You’re my Bayou bride, you’re my Cajun queen.

You’re my world, my life, and everything in-between.

You’re all I’ll ever need, and all I’ve ever dreamed.

You see.

 

These roads are exactly what they use to be.

Echoes from the long past century.

Whispered old memories whistle in the wind.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots again.

Tyres on the gravel and the pedal to the floor.

Heading back to the Georgia shore.

Not looking back, just moving on.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots alone.

 

Now I’m a father you’re a mother, one big family.

Two dogs and a kid and one on the way.

Think I’ll grab my pen, and write all this stuff down.

 

Tonight I’m going back.

Tonight I’m going back.

Tonight I’m going back to my roots alone.

 

These roads are exactly all we’ll ever need.

Taking us forwards to the next century.

Your blonde hair blowing in the whistling wind.

Tonight we’re laying down our roots again.

Tyres on the gravel and pedal to the floor.

Heading out of the Georgia shore.

Not looking back, just moving on.

Tonight I’m not starting my life alone.

 

© 2013 Nick Burgin

My end of Year One blog review

29 Dec

It’s the end of the year, so I thought I’d review the first year of my blog, for myself if nothing else.

 

Followers: 87 – no idea if that’s good or not…I’m pretty sure it’s not great 🙂 Although thank you to everybody who’s followed me so far!

Total views: 853 – I was aiming for 1000, so I’m not too far off.

Best day for views – 28 on August 5th thanks to a 14 view surge from Three Chord Queen.

 

Top 3 “likes”:

3. Cellophane Man https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/08/07/cellophane-man-a-poem/ – 8 likes

    The Vampyre: Canto One https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/08/20/the-vampyre-a-gothic-romance/ – 8 likes

2. Her: Part 3 https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/09/29/her-part-three/ – 10 likes

1. Here’s to you, kid https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/11/23/heres-to-you-kid/ – 11 likes

 

Most views:

Although most of my “likes” come from my poems and lyrics, two of my top three views are from quite dark articles I wrote about Euthanasia, and the death of actor Cory Monteith from a heroin overdose.

3. Euthanasia https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/07/31/euthanasia-if-youve-read-none-of-my-rants-so-far-please-read-this/ – 31 views

2. Three Chord Queen – https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/07/27/three-chord-queen/ – 49 views

1. The Hollywood Addiction https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/07/15/the-occasional-rant-formerly-daily-rant-episode-six-the-hollywood-addiction/ – 81 views

P.S. The answer to “how many Taylor Swift song titles” are in Three Chord Queen is…44!

 

Fan favourites:

Grandad https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/05/04/grandad/

Alabama Blues https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/03/14/alabama-blues-a-poem/

Survivor https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/08/14/me-myself-and-i-a-poem/

 

My favourites:

The Present https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/02/04/the-present-a-poem-2/ – the first poem I ever wrote.

Sweet Beatrice, My Muse https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/10/01/sweet-beatrice-my-muse/

Welcome To The Honky Tonk https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/08/28/welcome-to-the-honky-tonk-2/

Back To The Summer https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/back-to-the-summer/

 

Unexpected Disappointments:

Back To My Roots https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/06/02/back-to-my-roots-version-one/ – 0 likes

I’ll Always Be Your Hero https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/09/06/ill-always-be-your-hero/ – 2 likes

Party Town https://jbjfan2009.wordpress.com/2013/06/22/party-town-or-one-of-those-nights/ – 2 likes

 

A lot of my other earlier poems like “Grandad” and “Alabama Blues” have got 0 likes, hopefully due to the fact that I had barely any followers, so I’m not too disappointed. 

 

I guess that’s it. All in all a pretty good first year I think. Roll on 2014!

 

Happy New Year!